I know life throws you things at you to catch you off guard, but come on life give me a break . I really thought i was making a break-through with things and that life was looking brighter, no you get knocked back yet again.
I was really proud when Gnome spoke for the first time, if you missed it read Gnome’s Great Achievement . All yesterday I was on a I’m proud mummy high. Then out of the blue I fall to the ground with a great big bump. It all started when I picked Pinkie up from school just as we got past the mum who avoids us like the plague , Pinkie shouts at the top of her voice
” Shut up you lazy git ”
Please ground open up and swallow me moment, the other mums don’t like us as it is but that just added to the fire. Oh well what done is done I’m not explaining why should I. We had the same sort of language all the way home, everyone staring . I’m such a bad mum letting my child swear and I shouldn’t talk like that in front of the kids. MM funny that because I don’t. I wasn’t going to stand there arguing let them think what they want.
Then Perkie arrives home and he seemed in a bit of a mood, read his home link book found he had been naughty at school and had lost his sensory time which by the way he loves. I was feeding Gnome and told Perkie to stop winding Marley up when bang , he slapped me . I just couldn’t believe it , my lovely little boy had slapped me and it hurt not just physically but emotionally as well. Where had this monster come from, he stood there shouting at me, telling me to shut up and he would do what he wanted. What, he had NEVER been like this , what is this all about. I sent him upstairs as I just couldn’t face him , he had hurt me more than he can possibly know , I know it wasn’t intentionally but he had hurt me.
I told him I was very very sad, so he knew he had upset me. I hope this is just a phase and that it soon passes as I would hate it if he turns into this monster.
So my world in the space of a few hours changed, one step forward and goodness knows how many steps back again !!!!