These last few months have been sheer hell for my family so much has gone on, kids been ill, hubby been ill, money worries you know all the general things of life.
Little Gnome is my major concern as we are sure what exactly is wrong with him and we still don’t know what we are dealing with. We had a trip to the doctor’s re his chest infection and the doctor put a referral for him to see the pediatrician as soon as possible, so a step in the right direction. Then today I had a phone call from the Occupational Therapist to say they have a chair for Gnome that he can use in the house to give him support so another step in the right direction.
I was at school picking Pinkie up and the teacher looked over at me and I just knew I had to talk to her. I just blurted out
“Can I have a word ”
I hadn’t meant to, it just happened,
“Do you know where I can get some support from ?” that was it I was in floods of tears, where did they come from I can normally keep it all together whilst I am out is it at home where I do my crying,ranting,screaming. Safely behind closed doors.
The teacher took Pinkie and Perkie off me said right come with me we will get this sorted. She made me a cuppa and we sat down.
Out of no where it all poured out what was wrong with me , how I couldn’t cope I needed help.
Well I was half expecting “pull yourself together, come on, stop being so silly “, but instead I received right let’s see what we can do for you. I was lead in the headmistress office and was congratulated for coming to them saying I needed support. I was absolutely astonished it was a rushed meeting as I needed to be home for Diva but even in that short space of time they gave me hope .
Tomorrow morning I am having a proper meeting with the headmistress, the teacher and the SENCO to see what support I can get. We are also setting up a regular meeting on a Tuesday afternoon so i can discuss any problems and concerns I have. Or I just want a natter over a cuppa. How good is that, maybe things have started to look up.
So even when you think you’re at your darkest hour, there is always someone (maybe someone you wouldn’t have expected ) there to listen and help you. Remember It’s always darkest before the dawn